Oh man, to see the almost non-existent light at the end of
the tunnel is bitter sweet! This semester was soul draining, and it’s sad that
my time at a community college did not prepare me whatsoever for what UMD had
in store for me!
Aside from all the never-ending hours of work I had to do
for my classes, I am sad to see some of them finish, this class being one of themL. Making friends (and
taking courses with old ones), learning valuable lessons (on how not to plagiarize!)
and reading a dozen beyond amazing slash words-can’t-describe type of books was
unforgettable!
Unfortunately, I have to start with the fact that this class
helped me to realize that I am not right for teaching. Aside from my vast fear
of public speaking, even if it is just ten students, I had to eventually come
to terms with that. I’ve always wanted to be a teacher since I was little, and
it was kind of assumed that I would just go for it, which I sort of did, but as
the time passed and my experience increased, I just kept getting these “WHAT am
I doing here” warning flags in my head. Fortunately, I will still be pursuing a
major in English, since I will never stop loving literature of all sorts, and I
am excited to see what I can get out of all the classes UMD has to offer. I
also am making plans (slash goals) to attend grad school for Higher Education.
Although I do not want to be in front of a classroom full of testosterone filled
teens ready to pounce on me, I still do want to help out students, inspire them
and guide them to what they want to do with their lives, so I am looking into
advising for my career. I think this would be very suitable for me, and I think
I will be very happy in that field.
Now, for all the books we read in class… I’m not even sure
where to start! Of course being able to reread some of the high school and
middle school classics that I wasn’t able to (or didn’t care to) appreciate in
school was awesome. I loved being able to cry along and empathize with the characters
of The Outsiders, Night, and The Catcher in the Rye. I also loved being opened
to new classics that I never had a chance to read, like To Kill a Mockingbird,
which offered endless themes and valuable lessons to take away with me once I
was finished. I also liked reading these books and then watching their movie counterparts,
and comparing the two and noting all the differences and valuable aspects that
films don’t touch on that are read in the books. It reconfirmed the fact that
literature can be so eye opening and reading allows you to pick up on all the
little things that movies don’t (or can’t) fit in. I also enjoyed reading the
different types of genres, specifically graphic novels, which my high school
teachers would have never even considered using. Not only were Diary of a
Part-time Indian and Persepolis two amazing books, but the visual images helped
everything come together and make it whole, it helped me to see events and
scenes in the perspective of the author and how they wanted it to be portrayed.
Not only did these two books offer images, but they also touched on cultures
and ethnicities that I had never been exposed to. They were such amazing,
heart-touching stories and it absolutely broke my heart to read some of the
things that go on in other people’s lives and other parts of the world. These
two books are perfect for adolescents because it would help to bring them down
from their often self-centered pedestals and teach them to empathize, care and
understand other cultures and people, as well as allow them to appreciate what
and who they have in their lives. Speaking of cultures, I liked rereading Buried
Onions, because it reminded me of Part-time Indian, in how they live in low
income areas and how they didn’t have inspiring people in their lives to root
for them, but rather numerous aspects that constantly tried to pull them into
the wrong direction. It helps you get a touch of reality reading about the
deaths and addictions some people have to experience, but it’s nice to read
about those characters who do try to break through the norm and from what is
expected of them, even when everyone around them is a negative influence, it
makes them that much stronger to me. It makes me want to cry just thinking of
them! (I’m a crybaby by the way).
Another thing I enjoyed was learning about all the lenses. I
was taught by a bunch of strict, by the book, there-is-only-one-right-opinion-and-it’s-my-opinion
type of teachers. Although I passed all these classes with flying colors, I
never really got anything out of them other than what we were told to memorize,
and unfortunately, none of those teachers were inspiring to me. What I loved
about this class and the texts we had were that they allow you to think not
outside of the box, but like there is no box. They allow students who are often
shooed away by their teachers to bring in opinions and perspectives that added
value to the texts and class discussions. Things are never one-sided, but they
are often told one-sided, and this class helped us to stray from that notion.
All the different lenses that we used and learned about made me appreciate
literature about a bazillion times more than I had already did. It just opened
my eyes to so many different possibilities and ways to interpret texts and it
made me so much more confident in my work to not have Megan and Lisa tell me that
what I thought didn’t matter or was wrong. I think these lenses were probably
the most valuable set of things that I can take away from this course.
Another thing I really enjoyed was how close-knit our class
was, from our lectures, discussions, even down to the scolding, everything was
of value to me. I loved that it was barely a dozen of us in the room, yet our
voices and opinions were so powerful and resulted in such amazing, sometimes
overwhelming, discussions and debates that further resulted in me running home
to write up a blog post. I loved working in groups, in chats and in literature
circles with everyone and I am truly going to miss every single one of them.
Everyone was so supportive and positive towards one another, something I have
never experienced in other classes, or even with many people period. It is so
wonderful to know that these classmates of mine will be leading a classroom in
the future, and I will definitely be hunting them down and distributing my
offspring to each one of them!
It’s sad to see everyone go and I am truly thankful for this
class and all the help that Megan and Lisa have provided for us. I wish
everyone happy holidays and that we please all keep in touch! Hit a sister up
sometime! J
<3
Mabelyn Mijangos